Finally, i'm more relax ....

since i was closed my facebook account, i found that i'm more relaxing now ...
needn't to see those photos which are make me sad and disappointed, needn't to know what they are doing now ...
FREEDOM !!!! now i can do whatever i want ...
how free i ~~~

if ..

if i got a chance, i will leave here ..
go wherever i want with my mum to start a new life ...
i believe that good luck will come to u while u have a good starting point ..
but, will i get this ??
i think that, i will not get this forever ..

i think ... i should give up ...

since i was finished STPM .. i realised that almost all the day i'm staying alone ..
besides my family, i look like an orphan, i couldn't find someone who really wanna listen to me, and i couldn't find someone that i can share my difficulties to he or she .. sometime, i'm sitting on bed, sofa, even in my car to cry ..
i don't know how many times i cry on this friendship, when i wanna go out, the first one that i called is this gang, but it seen like nobody wanna go out with me, but when i on facebook, i found that they are having wonderful college life with their course-mates and house-mates ... travelling, having fun, dinner, clubbing together ... i'm trying to get some reason to make an excuse, but at the end, i couldn't ..
maybe, it is the time to me to give up on this friendship ..
but,
should i or shouldn't i ??